The clock clicks away.
Every new reality finding its place.
So different. So changed.
As “ordinary” begins to sink down deep…
into soft cushy pillows, kicking up its feet.
And life goes on, even after a tragedy.
Another Click resounds.
I try not to hate it. I even try to embrace it.
As it reminds me of my weary ways.
Yet, it never lets up. Never rests.
And I find myself waiting.
The clock. It controls the days.
It’s ways written into the scheme of existence.
Running methodically, exactly as it was instructed,
long ago when all was created.
It clicks away submissively.
The clock. Sands away at my whims.
Grating at those imperfections in powerful subtraction.
Grinding, sanding, scraping, purifying.
And again, I hear another click.
As the process continues on…
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The past couple of weeks, I’ve been feeling the struggle of the wait.
Sometimes, I feel like my world is spinning out of control with all of the changes in
our lives. Everything is different. The clock drives me crazy, in that I
want so much to bring everything back into order. I want to control it all. But, I’m
realizing that I cannot control all the facets of my life. So, I must somehow learn
to embrace the wait. Maybe instead of seeing the clock as a burden, instead seeing it as a
comfort… Instead of focusing on how I want a job now, maybe, on how God is so sweet in letting me spend even more time with my daughters at home before returning to work (I did get to see H’s first steps the other day!). Waiting does not come naturally to me. But, God’s ways are higher than our ways. Its in the wait that we grow and rely on Him more. And also, it’s in the wait, that we can get ourselves in trouble if we’re too impatient and not careful. So, I just keep praying, “God help me wait on you. Guide me and protect me. And, I know that you are the provider of all good things. So I will wait on you to the best of my ability. God help me to not just endure the wait, but to enjoy it– to relish every sweet minute with my daughters and family at home!” May God bless you right where you’re at today! Regina
“I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord.”
Psalm 27:13-14
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